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| so, nothing long today. i felt like i had to change my font a bit. lol. this might not even work, but we'll see in due time. so it does work, haha i like this font, it's got tails on almost all the letters. lol. sorry about all the font changing, i guess i have add right now. lol. i have work in 3 hours and i really dont want to go. oh well, some people there are worth seeing. dave of course. alex not so much. bryan...eh. that's about it with all the cool people. lol. bryan and dave. i dont' even know what other cashiers are working and i already know i can't stand them. that says something about the stupid drama addicted high schoolers they hire. they're annoyiing. and also saying something about the old people who work there who can't keep there grimy hands out of everything that spits out change. YOU WORK THERE! YOU GET A PAYCHECK! WHAT DO YOU NEED LOSE CHANGE FOR!! no names will be mentioned ::cough BERNIE HARK cough:: wow, i should probably get that checked out. lol. alright. piece out. | | |
| god! why can't i ever do anything right! ugh. first of all, i never took any pictures of anyone's penis or anybody who was naked! i just want to scream so loud! i can't believe you would think i was that type of person at all! i never gave you a reason to find a reason to hate me! i never did anything to you besides break up with you and i'm sincerely sorry about it! your not the only one who's hurting. but finding reasons to hatee me isn't gonna help the pain go away either! i can't wait to see these pictures you assume i took when we were going out. you dont' even realize that i haven't had my camera for 6 weeks. how do you know someone didn't mistake my camera for lisa's camera just like you said you did!! gosh it makes me so angry that you making me out to be a bad guy and i was the only person who you can trust! or did you forget you said that? i can't do it anymore. if this keeps going on, i don't think we can be friends at all. it's killing me too much! i never said anything wrong to you, i never hurt you, i never cheated on you, and i can't believe you would think twice about that! after my history of boyfriends and you would think that i would be that low to cause hurt in the same way it was forced on me? you must be really dumb. great, i wanted to talk about other things, but now all my anger is out there and i'm too warn out from it to write anything else. thanks. | | |
| so haven't talked for awhile, obviously. but anyway, life has been rough. my mom isn't doing well at all. my love life is the dumps and i really dont know what to do about anything anymore. i can barely say i have a tight grasp on life. i really don't. school's starting in less than a month and i still haven't paid anything for it yet. tomorrow i'm supposed to be going to montco to get this student loan thing so that way i can actually go to school. i really hope everything goes over well because i'd really rather not stay at home working at genuardi's for the rest of my life. not really my dream. everyone's lied to me that i've considered as a friend. one person has my trust now and let's just hope they dont' screw things up with that because that'll be very depressing if i can't trust anyone. i won't ever find anyone i can talk to. and if i can't talk, then why do i even exist? i'm not being emo. or atleast i'm not trying to be, it's just the way i feel about life right now. the truth is i really dont like my life the way it's going right now. i dont have anything written in stone and my parents argue all the time about stupid stuff. which i s where i think i get my skills in arguing and why i seem to do it to everyone i know and love. it sucks growing up in a house like this. that's the real reason why dont invite anyone over. i just dont want to be embarrassed by the constant bickering of my parents. i dont want to be compared to everyone else. how my household would be demonstrated as the "broken home." literally broken too. i just don't know why my parents won't just divorce already. i can hear them as i speak. i hate how i can't please everyone when they want to be pleased and how i anger people without even knowing how i'm doing it. sometimes i dont even have to do anything it feels like to piss people off. | | |
| so me and brian broke up... its cool now, i talked to him last night and tried to get back together, but im beginning to think that its useless and that i shouldnt waste my time trying to get back together... i messed it up and brian's right, i think too much and i made a mistake, but i totally understand where he's coming from with the whole not wanting to get back together with me....but hopefully my life gets back on track, i mean you know the saying, everything happens for a reason. on another note, Abington's first day was today and it made me think about how much i miss high school and that i took it for granted and i rushed it to fast and it sucks that i cant turn back time... but while everyone was in school today, i highlighted my hair and got my nails done and even tho they were smaller things, i feel like a new person,,, i dont know why either. xoxo ~OK~ | | |
| so yea, i went to South Street with my bestest friend in the whole wide world today...it wasn't all it was cracked up to be, but it was cool. tiffany and i went to condom kingdom which was probably the highlight of my first trip to South Street...lol dont ask why, it just was. so after our trip, we went to aldi's with her mommy and she saved brian's life, and he wasn't there, its all because of a small jar of pickles!!! lol long story!!! then we came home with kyle and saw Final Destination 3...let me just say i will never go on another roller coaster again!!!!!! or a train...now i'm gonna go pee my pants...again
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